Why didn't my parents just have an abortion on me?

This might sound harsh but it's not meant to. You are now your own person and you need to learn from the mistakes your parents made. You probably do need some form of therapy, try to see someone. I do feel for you, being mother of two boys I hope that they know how much they are loved, I tell them every day, and I think that you need to know that it wasn't you it was them at fault. Be happy:))