What should I do??????? ?

Hi Amanda Silly, when it certainly helps when we don't have to deal with Brandon. So then there were two, and really you do what you think is right. There are two guys around and you know both of them pretty well. So I guess you go for the one that you see the possibility of a long time relationship with. But you must remember that you're in danger of losing both of them. So you'd better tread carefully. So that has dealt with your problems. But unfortunately that's not the end of the problem, because now you're dealing with two guys and their emotions. You're not sure about Jason, and you don't want to lose Derek in your life. But you must remember these two guys might not go the way you want them to. There's little point in carrying on with Derek if you don't like him all that much. So I guess you need to ask Jason exactly what he thinks about upping the relationship with you. For that might decide things for you. If we can forget about the two guys, just for one moment, and turned attention to you. For this question is all about you, and your emotions. You pay little attention to these two guys emotions. Jason is cool with you just as a friend. You don't seem to know, or at least you don't say exactly what derek thinks about his relationship with you. It's all about what you think about your relationship with Derek. It seems he doesn't have any input to all this. Anyway it's pointless going with Derek, but if you lose him in your life, then that is his decision, and one you shouldn't try to influence. If you try to up your relationship with Jason, and he doesn't want that. Then I'm afraid you've lost both of them. For you must certainly tell Derek what is in your mind about Jason, and you must tell him how you don't see him as being a long term relationship. So they both know what you want. But you don't know what they want. That's why I say you could lose both. Anyway the decision to ask Jason is yours, but I don't see Derek being around to pick up the pieces. I really don't envy you. I wish you well.